The cursor blinks with urgency begging me to take charge of the keyboard. I have spent the past hour staring at my computer screen waiting for the perfect line to begin with. But all I get is a jumble of words that finally seem to make some sense and then, they don't. Ironically, it's the same with life right now.
The fury is mind-numbing. Its a constant chaos up there, with the helplessness and the restlessness, the things I could've achieved and the things I left behind. As a child, we were always asked what we wanted to be in future. But never were we told what to do, in order to become what we wanted. Or worst still, we don't know what we want from life. This sense of directionlessness, coupled with anxiety and a low sense of self-worth feeds on itself, dragging one down.
But such a feeling of existential angst is also an opportunity to make a fresh start. Take it as a test: to make a new beginning and to demonstrate to ourselves that that there is a higher calling. We come out of it saner, wiser and smarter. It makes us face challenges, overcome our fear and differences. And most importantly, it gives direction and purpose to life.
Now I truly understand what they mean when they tell you to follow your heart. If you don't know where to start just let your instincts guide you. Don't let the friction drag you down. Generate lift. Get a grip and make a new start because what doesn't kill you always makes you stronger.
Malin
